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Sunday, December 29, 2013

Gandalf: Examining a leader

This week’s chapter is called “The Bridge of Khazad-Dum.”  The Fellowship, guided by Gandalf, has been travelling through the mines of Moria, trying to get to the other side.  The previous chapter ended with the Fellowship leaving the main hall and entering a chamber containing the tomb Balin (Gimli’s cousin and a companion of Bilbo on his earlier adventure).  This chapter opens with the Fellowship paying their respects.  When they are done, Boromir asks what their next move is.  Gandalf says:  “Back to the hall – but our visit has not been in vain.  I now know where we are [and how to get out of the mines].”

No sooner has Gandalf spoken than the Fellowship hears the sound of horns and drums.  Gandalf looks out the door and reports that there are a great many orcs coming down the hall, as well as a cave troll.  He suggests the Fellowship flees through the door on the other side of the room.  There are too many orcs for them to all take on.

Gandalf is the Fellowship’s guide, but in modern business terms we might call him the “problem solver.”
  Difficult circumstances arise, and he provides the solution.  He doesn’t explain every detail;  It doesn’t matter how tall the cave troll is, what matters is: RUN!  Given a problem, he can solve it.  In this way, Gandalf is a tactician.

However, tactics is low-level thinking.  Tactics will get you from point A to point B, but what if you need to get to point H?  Point B may not be the best route, and in fact may be off the track entirely.  Point B solves the problem of Point A, but doesn't necessarily get you any closer to Point H.

Let’s return to our text.  Gandalf’s plan seems reasonable.  Orcs and trolls are charging towards the Fellowship.  They cannot defeat them, but maybe they can escape the pursuit.  But Aragorn raises an objection, “The passage on this side plunges straight down a stair: it plainly does not lead back toward the hall... It is no good flying blindly this way with the pursuit just behind.”

Retreat doesn’t help the Fellowship if it ends up lost deeper into the mines.  Gandalf is thinking only of the immediate crisis: Escape.  Aragorn, however, is thinking strategically.  If tactics is how you solve problems, strategy is what guides those choices.  What’s the long-term goal?  The Fellowship needs to get to Mordor, which means escaping the mines.  Gandalf has just said he knows where they are and how to get out, and yet in the panic of the moment he tells them to go down the door opposite the direction he originally designated.  While addressing an urgent situation, Gandalf loses sight of the important task.

It would be like a homeless shelter deciding it can only properly house 500 individuals, but then housing 800 because those at the door felt bad turning anyone away.  It’s understandable, noble, and (importantly) hard to criticize.  Who is going to say those 300 people need to stay outside?  But what if 500 was the limit for health and safety reasons?  Disease can now spread through the shelter like wildfire.  This is a time when the strategy (help as many people as possible) is undercut by poor tactical decisions (let an additional 300 people in, which overwhelms the system). 

I spent this past week at a Moishe House leadership retreat in Southern California.  It was remarkable.  The purpose was largely to understand and develop our own leadership, but we also had a lot of discussions that can be broken down into this kind of tactical and strategic thinking.  The long-term goal, the overarching purpose of Moishe House is to provide meaningful Jewish experiences for young adults around the world by supporting leaders in theirs 20s and 30s as they create vibrant home-based Jewish communities for themselves and their peers.  But how is this done?

Moishe House is made up of many community houses spread across the world.  Every house has the same goal, but each house serves a unique community.  Therefore, in order to achieve this goal, each House needs to use different tactics.  They need different events and different forms of outreach.  For example there are three houses in San Francisco.  One is very hippy and ‘granola.’  My first event we went on a hike and someone made homemade smoothies.  We did some meditation in the forest.  It was pretty much what you’d expect from even a passing understanding of SF culture.  It was why I had chosen that house over, say, the Russian house, also in SF, which caters to young Jews who speak Russian and want to enjoy Russian culture.  That’s not to say there’s no overlap, but clearly each House seeks to attract a different demographic.  As such, their events and outreach (tactics) will be different.  But the goal remains the same.

Moishe House knows there is no one type of event young Jews like.  They know handing events down to each house 'from on high' and telling them to run those events would be met with limited, if any success.  So instead they’ve adopted the strategy of letting each house run their own events based on what the community would like.  The goal is to give young Jews meaningful experiences and communities.  The strategy is letting the houses come up with their own events.  Whatever events they choose are the tactics.

What is Gandalf’s strategy?  We know his tactics, and we know his goal.  But what are his guiding principles?  Moishe House’s guiding principle is that the community houses will be better able to create relevant events than the head honchos at capital M capital H Moishe House.  What guides Gandalf?  Examining past actions in our text does not help much.  He tells Frodo to go to Rivendell (because, tactically, the Shire is not a safe place for the Ring) but once there all that happens is Elrond calls a council and forms the Fellowship.  Getting to Rivendell (or even Mordor!) is not strategy - that is a goal.  No soccer team’s strategy is “score points.”  That’s just the goal (GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLL).  The question at hand is how and why that way.  It is like the underpants gnomes of South Park.  Gandalf cannot explain phase 2.

Later in this very chapter, in fact, the short-sightedness of Gandalf is demonstrated yet again.  After fleeing down the stairs (the doorway to the hall collapses in the fight and so they have no choice), they come near the exit of the mines.  Gandalf peers out into a chasm and sees a great fire on the other side.  He says, “If we had come by the main road down from the upper halls, we should have been trapped here.”  As in: If we had followed my original plan, we would have been trapped.

It doesn’t matter that Gandalf’s new plan (retreating down the stairs) actually works.  This is not how a good leader operates.  Apparently, Gandalf has just been hoping this would all work out.  How would you feel if you learned your supervisor at work was operating like this?  It would be very disheartening.  Everyone is depending on Gandalf to guide them to Mordor, but it seems like his approach is “I’m surprised that worked, too!”  The text is not providing a good model of leadership.  This is not an approach that we should bring into our lives.

So what do we make of this?  What can we learn?  I think this is one of those times when the text teaches us through what is absent.  To find the lesson, we must find what is missing.

We’re not all leaders in the typical way.  We don’t necessarily have employees or followers.  But we all have a mission to accomplish.  We all want, as the underpants gnomes say, “profit.”  Whether that be money or friends or time or joy or success, we want something.  And hopefully we, like Gandalf, have the tools.  But I hope, ultimately, we can rise above Gandalf’s example and be intentional and thoughtful in our approach.  I hope, when we step back and examine our journey, we can see a purpose behind every tactical decision.  It is good to have a friend like Aragorn, able to challenge our actions when they seem at odds with the very goals we’re trying to accomplish.  It is better yet to have a voice like that in our head, checking us when our immediate tactics appear to undercut our long-term strategy.

Sunday, December 22, 2013

Sam: Honoring our Commitments

Recently we've been drawing morals out of one or two sentences from the text.  In order to spice things up (for both your benefit and mine), we're going to look at things a little differently and take a closer look at the characters and certain crucial choices they make.  This week, we'll examine Sam.

This week's chapter is called "A Journey In The Dark."  Having been defeated by the mountain Caradrhas, the Fellowship now reconsiders it's options.  Boromir suggests they march south, following the path he took when he came to Rivendell.  Gandalf reminds him that Isengard is that way: "Things have changed since you came North, Boromir.  Did you not hear what I told you of Saruman?"  Going north to get around the mountain range is also dismissed - the journey would be too long.  They need to move with speed.  So, the company agrees to enter Moria, the mines underneath the Caradrhas.  They can cut through the Dwarven realm and re-emerge on the other side in a matter of days.

As they arrive at the Door into the mountain, Gandalf pulls Sam aside and tells him that Bill, their baggage pony, will not go with them into the mines.

'I am sorry, Sam,' said the wizard.  'But when the Door
opens I do not think you will be able to drag your Bill inside,
into the long dark of Moria.  You will
have to choose between Bill and your master.'

Sam protests, reminding Gandalf that they were just attacked by wolves and that leaving Bill on his own will get him killed, but Gandalf assures him Bill will get home in one piece.  He leans in to Bill and whispers some words to him.

Bill, seeming to understand well what was going on,
nuzzled up to him, putting his nose to Sam's ear. 
Sam burst into tears, and fumbled with the straps, unlading
all the pony's packs and throwing them on the ground.

Here is an interesting word - "unlading."  It  isn't supposed to be "unloading."  It isn't a typo.  To unladen is a nautical term which means "to unload a ship."  And while ships are inanimate objects, to those that ride them they take on a more personal note.  Just as those of us who drive develop a personal relationship with our car.  It is just a thing, but it is also much more than that.  There are feelings tied to it.  And how much more, for Sam, that Bill is alive, and not just a hunk of metal!

And so the Creative Wizard, in this one word, manages to capture so much of Sam's feelings.  He recognizes that Bill is not a person, but yet he has these feelings for him that are beyond what one would normally feel for a pack animal.  We can empathize.  There are times when we must say good bye to things we care about.

Gandalf opens the door and the Fellowship begins to enter.

But at that moment several things happened.  Frodo
felt something seize him by the ankle, and he fell with
a cry.  Bill the pony gave a wild neigh of fear,
and turned tail and dashed away along the lakeside into
the darkness.  Sam leaped after him, and then hearing Frodo's
cry he ran back again, weeping and cursing.

It is interesting to note the order of events.  Frodo falls first, and then Bill runs away.  But Sam first follows Bill, turning around only when he hears Frodo shouting.  From this we can say Sam was watching Bill.  As one might watch an old car be brought to the trash compactor, remembering all of the memories associated with it.  Sam is perhaps staring at Bill with the same grief and nostalgia and pain.  When Bill flees, it's like the trash compactor being turned on.  Sam suddenly regrets his decision, and "leaps" into action.  I imagine him thinking I'm coming, Bill!

Only Frodo's cry, after falling over, captures Sam's attention.  Consciously or not, Sam remembers that Bill is supposed to leave the Fellowship.  Frodo, meanwhile, should not be shouting for help.  If he is, something is wrong.  So Sam returns to Frodo ("weeping and cursing") and finds him being held down by a tentacle coming out of the water.  Sam attacks the tentacle, which lets go of Frodo, and pulls him into the open cave.  Other tentacles (which Sam refers to mistakenly as 'snakes' throughout the scene) come flying forward into the cave, and pull down the Door, causing a cave-in.  The Fellowship is inside, but they are also trapped.  Everyone takes a moment to recover from the attack.

Sam, clinging to Frodo's arm, collapsed on
a step in the black darkness.  'Poor old
Bill!' he said in a choking voice, 'Poor old Bill!
Wolves and snakes!  But the snakes were too much for him.
 I had to choose, Mr. Frodo.  I had to come with you.'

Bill's purpose in the Quest is over.  Frodo's is not.  While Bill accompanied the Fellowship, Sam's personal loyalty to both Frodo and Bill were complementary.  When Bill was sent away, they became contradictory.  Sam was pulled in two directions.  To the animal which he is master over, and to the master whom he serves.  It is interesting, when put that way, that Sam chooses to remain with the one whom he serves, rather than the one whom would serve him.

It is instructive now to note that Sam is a gardener.  Is a gardener master or servant of his garden?  On the one hand, a master - he gets to choose what is planted and where.  But on the other hand, once the garden is planted, he becomes it's servant.  A gardener becomes subject to the needs of the plants.  Until it is strong enough to survive on their own, if the garden is not tended to in a timely way, the garden will die.  And if your garden dies, are you still a gardener?  Were you ever?

"People tend to forget their duties but remember their rights."  Sam does not.  Sam had the right to follow Bill.  Elrond explicitly stated no one is bound to the Quest except Frodo.  Sam does not leave, but it is important to note that he is not staying for the sake of the Quest.  He is staying for Frodo.  Whether the danger is greater or lesser than it is now, he is motivated by devotion to his friend.

Sam's loyalty beckons us to look inward.  He consistently chooses humble service.  He fights tentacles through tears, and even when his loyalties are divided, he is driven in both directions with speed, rather than paralyzed by indecision.  Sam is resolute in his devotion, and we can imagine he would tear himself in two so he could be with both Bill and Frodo if he could.  But he can't.  So he had to choose.  He chose Frodo.  But even after he has made the choice, we can infer he is not wholly satisfied.  He still wishes he could have had both.  But he couldn't.  "I had to come with you."  He was duty-bound.

Gandalf had warned him - he would have to choose.  Sam delights in caring for Bill.  He is very fond of him.  But his duty ultimately leads him to Frodo.  The next time we are faced with a choice between duty and delight, when we cannot have both, we should remember Sam, and the difficult choice he had to make.  Even when our emotions run amok, and we are "weeping and cursing", we must make the dutiful choice.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Choosing the right companions

This chapter, literally, marks the beginning of the Fellowship of the Ring.  About halfway through the chapter the Fellowship is formed and begins its journey towards Mordor.  While many may presume the Fellowship pushes east immediately, the path of the Fellowship is a little less direct.  As this chapter's title states, initially, "The Ring Goes South."  And so, the journey begins!

However the last chapter ended only with Frodo taking up the burden as Ring-Bearer (and Sam, having sneaked into the Council of Elrond, pledging his allegiance).  At the start of the chapter, the Fellowship is yet unformed.  Elrond says of it, "Nine Walkers shall be set against the Nine Riders that are evil." He announces that Gandalf, Legolas and Gimli will go with Frodo.  Aragorn and Boromir announce their decision to go to Minas Tirith (Capital of Gondor, Boromir's home) and, since Minas Tirith is on the way to Mordor, they will accompany the Fellowship that far.  So the first seven are decided.  Elrond says, "There remain two more to be found.  These I will consider.  Of my household I may find some that it seems good to me to send."  At this Pippin speaks up, saying:

"But that will leave no place for us!  We don't want to be left behind.  We want to go with Frodo."
"That is because you do not understand and cannot imagine what lies ahead," said Elrond.
"Neither does Frodo," Said Gandalf, "I think, Elrond, in this matter
it would be well to trust rather to their friendship than to great wisdom."

The first and then final two companions who pledge their allegiance are Hobbits.  Moreover, they are his friends who would accompany him even on a journey not so dangerous (or moreso).  Legolas, Gimli, Aragorn, Boromir, and even Gandalf (who has known Frodo a long time) are accompanying him due to the importance of his Quest.  Sam and Merry and Pippin are going because they want to be with Frodo.  In fact, when Elrond initially balks at Gandalf's suggestion, Pippin says: "Master Elrond, you will have to lock me in a prison or send me home tied in a sack, for otherwise I shall follow the Company."  These are not the words of a fiery zealot, committed to the destruction of the Ring (few have more invested in destroying the Ring than Aragorn and Boromir, and they've already announced they don't plan to follow the Company all the way to Mordor).  These are the words of a friend.

We need friends like this.  We've already seen how, in the text, friendship trumps wisdom.  We need friends who are so unwilling to let us face disaster alone, they're willing to forsake the comforts of home to do so.  These, and not those who hold great wisdom, are the real heroes of the world.  Paramedics, firefighters, soldiers, police officers, everyone who must be somewhere for their job.  Everyone who must be, as the saying goes, "in the trenches."  While managers and researchers and theorists have an important part to play in the world, it is those on the ground whom we must give our highest respect.  They know the situation better than anyone.

But I'm not even talking about high-stakes situations.  When I was younger I worked in a candy store.  I was told that, every few hours, I needed to spend 10 minutes wiping the insides of the display glass where our fudge was kept.  Obviously, this is important to do.  But my supervisor would always just tell me to do it.  My co-workers understood my frustration.  Cleaning glass for 10 minutes (and cleaning the inside of display glass is physically a little awkward) feels like a lot.  But whenever I complained, my boss would get angry.  I wasn't saying it shouldn't be done - I think I was just frustrated at just how easily I was told to do it - as if the inconvenience was my own fault.

Being a teacher, I see something similar.  In Alaska my boss would always tell me various things to do.  They were good and important things to do.  But the ease with which they are able to be said is drastically simpler than the act of doing them.  It gave a whole new meaning to the phrase "Easier said than done."

As a society, we have the same frustrations.  Education researchers/experts recommend that if teachers do X, Y and Z that our school system can be fixed.  As a teacher, I often feel like responding "Yes - but doing that is way harder than you're imagining."  I'm not saying "It's too hard, screw it."  But talking heads have a way of spouting solutions without taking into account the process of that solution.  For example, a common theme I hear is to "get parents on board."  Certainly that's important.  But you can't just....... do that.  It takes time and energy and a unique approach with each family.  Some families are too busy to even want to get on board.  Some are eager to get on board, and then also eager to take control of the whole ship.  Those "in the trenches" understand this.  Those who are not sometimes don't.  There's a disconnect between those speaking wisdom and those enacting the wisdom.

Which is why we, as a society, tend to despise (or love) talking heads.  Either: they say something simplistic and, Goddammit, the world doesn't work that way; or they say something simplistic and, Goddammit, why don't the fools doing the work just do it that way?  Peace talks are a good counter-example.  Removed from the fighting, it's easy to say "Just put down your weapons and quit it!"  But the war didn't start because one side was bored with peace.  They wanted something and the other side didn't want to give it up or they couldn't find a way to split it in a way that seemed fair.  They'd love to put down their weapons, once they get what they want.  But telling them to just "stop fighting" because fighting is bad misses the point of their war.  I imagine they might feel as I feel when I read an article on education policy:  "We'd love to, but it isn't that simple."

Those on high, while their wisdom may be good to know and have access to, are not ideal companions.  They see a bigger picture that minimizes us.  We're the tools they can use to accomplish their goal.  But we aren't tools, and we don't like to be treated that way.  When we're down in the trenches, we want someone who cares about us, and who sees our struggle, and who sees us trying our hardest and still falling short.  We don't want someone to say "Well, just try harder."  We want (we need) someone who will say:  "Yeah, this sucks.  This is awful and we're not getting the support we need.  I wish I could fix that.  But I can't.  At least know that you're not alone.  I'm here in this, too."

It is good for the Quest to have Aragorn and Boromir and Gandalf and Gimli and Legolas accompany Frodo.  It is good for Frodo to have Sam and Merry and Pippin with him.  Unlike the great warriors and heroes listed above, here Frodo will have companions who can understand his pain and wonder at the impossibility of the Quest.  Without their other companions, the Quest is doomed to fail (after all, Frodo does not know the way).  But they need more than wisdom and strength to complete their  journey.  They will need sympathy and compassion.

We all work jobs where there is someone above is.  They provide the wisdom.  They have a vision of how everything should work.  That is good - we need those visionaries.  We need those who see how everything fits together.  However, in seeing the big picture, they sometimes see us only as a tool.  A way to accomplish a job.  I know this from my own managing experience.  While I try to make personal connections with all my staff, there are times when something needs to be done and that's all that matters.  In at least that moment, that's all I can focus on: I have a problem, and they are the tools.

Nonetheless, when I get treated like a tool, I still don't like it.  But I see it more as a shortcoming of the supervisory structure than a failure of the individual.  There's little use being mad at them.  After all - I do the same thing!  But I'm still frustrated.  To deal with those feelings, then, I find those who work with me (rather than above me).  Those who see my day-to-day work and will understand my frustration at being asked to do yet another thing.

There are a myriad of reasons why friends are important.  One of them - in my mind, the most important - is emotional support.  They may not be able to fix the problem - they may not be able to do anything.  But they'll be able to listen and validate and assure you that, indeed, you aren't weak for feeling stressed out.  Hard jobs are not completed by those who are impervious to their difficulty.  Hard jobs are completed by those who have surrounded themselves with those who can provide support when needed.  Those on high may not be understanding - "You have a job to do!"  And they're right.  If Frodo fails the Quest, all hope is lost (Hopefully our job isn't quite so critical).  But, for all their wisdom and vision, they lack sympathy and compassion.  We must get those things elsewhere.

On three things the Fellowship stands:  Wisdom to guide the way, strength to overcome obstacles, and compassion to heal a tired heart: and the creation of friendships leads to them all.

Such as it is in the text - such as it is in life.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Journeying into the dark

Sometimes I wonder how long I will be doing this.  Will I write these posts for just one year?  Will I revisit these texts another year, as Jews do during their cyclical reading of the Torah, delving even deeper into the text?  Or will I find something else to write about, like The Hunger Games series, or Axe-cop, or will I choose 52 rap songs or famous speeches, and broaden my inquiry on what happens if you take a mundane text and study it as if it is holy.   I don't really know.  However, chapters like the one this week excite me a great deal.  I feel I could revisit this chapter ten times and not repeat myself.  There is a lot here.

The chapter is called "The Council of Elrond," and in it many of the unanswered questions that have developed up to this point are addressed: Gandalf not rendezvousing with the Hobbits as promised, the fate of Gollum, how it is Sauron discovered the Ring was in the Shire, as well as the point of view of all the races of the Free Peoples in Middle Earth on the issue.

The Elves want it destroyed, but recognize the only place the Ring can be destroyed is in Orodruin (Mount Doom), which is in Sauron's stronghold of Mordor.  It seems impossible to get there.  The Dwarves suggest hiding it, but the Council says such a thing will not defeat Sauron, who would tear Middle Earth apart searching for it.  Sauron, even without the Ring, is still very strong.   Boromir of Gondor, the realm closest to Mordor, and which does constant battle with the Sauron's troops, encourages the Council to allow him to take It back to Minas Tirith to use against the Enemy.  Though he is informed of the madness of his plan, he seems unconvinced.

No consensus can be reached.  The Ring cannot be hidden or used, and while the idea of taking the Ring into Mordor seems to be the only one left, that still seems hopeless, as Elrond says, "This quest may be attempted by the weak with as much hope as the strong.".  A silence falls over the Council as they ponder what to do.  The Ring cannot remain in Rivendell, but if it is to be brought to Mordor, who will bring it?  How can the Council send someone on such a hopeless journey?

At last with an effort [Frodo] spoke, and
wondered to hear his own words...
'I will take the Ring,
though I do not know the way.'

What a profound moment of determination.  Frodo recognizes what must be done, and its importance.  The Ring must be destroyed.  And even though there is no hope of victory, it still must be done.  But before it is done, it must be started.

Are there times you have decided to do something even before you knew precisely how to do it?  I know I have.  There are times in our lives when we know something must be done, but are not sure the precise way to do it.  In that moment we are like lost hikers, who know they must get back to camp, but cannot say for sure which direction it is in.  They can sit and wait until inspiration hits them (or starvation takes them), or they can begin to wander in the hopes of finding something that will direct them.  Frodo, here, chooses to wander.  So should we.

This week the world endured the death of Nelson Mandela, a truly larger than life figure who brought the end of Apartheid in South Africa.  But his journey was not so simple.  I don't mean to imply he endured resistance, though he did.  Nelson Mandela (I will be using his whole name solely because it sounds so much more melodious than 'Mr. Mandela,' or simply even 'Mandela') saw the Apartheid of his country and decided it needed to end.  But how?

At first he adhered to non-violent protest (as Ghandi and Martin Luther King Jr had modeled in their own struggles), but later openly supported guerrilla groups that attacked the Apartheid government.  He strongly advocated that the Blacks of South Africa fight for their rights on their own (for it seemed silly to him that, in fighting for the right to be equals, they should require the help of others), but he eventually acquiesced to the wishes of the majority of Blacks that they accept the help of willing outside parties (which ranged from Whites who believed in the cause of equality to the Soviets who hoped for a workers' revolution).  Nelson Mandela traveled around Africa to garner support for the cause and yet also would rush back to his home mid-trip when needed.  After being released from prison he courted the US (remember: they had accepted Soviet help years before), and ran for political office (again: he was arrested for trying to sabotage the government which, whether the government deserved it or not, is precisely what they were doing)

Nelson Mandela had a goal.  He did not know how to accomplish it, but dammit he was going to try.  And he did.  And there were stumbles and failures and frustrations.  His plans were always changing.  While we can call him a dynamic leader able to react to a changing situation, I think it's more accurate to simply say:  He was going to achieve his goal no matter how.  By peace or by war, he was determined to end Apartheid, even if it killed him.

I don't point out the above to say Nelson Mandela was bumbling or inefficient.  I bring this up because at so many points Nelson Mandela could have given up.  Not because his enemies were too strong, but because the nature of his cause changed.  He was not committed to non-violent protest, nor to military action.  He just wanted Apartheid to end.  When he found that one strategy was not working as well as he desired, he found a new one.

For contrast, let's take Malcolm X and Martin Luther King Jr.  While they both began with the same goal (ending discrimination in America), they both became dedicated to their methods more than their goal.  Even to this day, they are seen as representing two opposite viewpoints.  Rather than being seen as two figures of the Civil Rights movement, they are portrayed as titans struggling for ideological dominance.  But, because Nelson Mandela moved back and forth from militancy to pacifism, he embodies all of Anti-Apartheid struggle.  Nelson Mandela represents both those willing to use violence and those who wish to avoid it, and he unites them both toward their goal.

Surely few of us can hope to have the impact of Nelson Mandela - There can only be so many larger-than-life figures in the world.  But his life is instructive in our understanding of this week's quote.  So much of modernity requires planning.  Interviewers will ask "Where do you see yourself in five years?".  GPS give step-by-step instructions (And if they can't, they give no information until they can "reroute" you).  The very idea of getting an educational degree at the age of 22 that will direct the rest of your life exudes this ideal to absurdity.  Our culture loves plans.

But plans are for the lucky.  Plans are for the informed.  Sometimes you don't have all the information.  Sometimes you're stuck in the proverbial wilderness without a hint of how to get to where you're going.  But wherever you are, you cannot stay there.  You must move.  But to where?

I had a supervisor years ago at Eisner who used to say to us counselors:  "We are all on the bus, but we're not sure where we're going.  But we're going somewhere great."  He meant it to mean that we have all the tools we could need - we had a vast variety of people and skills and passions.  The summer would take us on a journey - and it was impossible to know the details of that journey ahead of time.  But, that shouldn't worry us.  We were all here, and as long as we worked together, we would have a great summer.

Sitting and waiting for inspiration to hit lends despair.  The obstacles are still there, but now they seem even larger.  After running through potential solutions in our head, the obstacle seems stronger with every imperfect solution. After a while, we become obsessed on the obstacle ahead of us, and the apparent impossibility of overcoming it, rather than the mission we hope to achieve.  If we had stood up and wandered, we might have found another way around that wasn't clear before (and would never be clear from our earlier position).  At the least, if we wander, we keep moving and feel like we're doing something.  Hikers can starve whether they wait or wander.  But those that wait give all hope to some Providence to give them the solution.  Those that wander take matters into their own hand.  They keep the larger goal in mind, rather than become rooted in the battle against one obstacle.  There's a Jimmy Buffett quote that comes to my mind: "And the walls that won't come down we can decorate or climb or find some way to get around."  If in fact the obstacle can't be broken down, that's no reason to admit defeat.

It all comes down to this: We live in a world of imperfect information.  We can always know more.  We are always, to one degree or another, in the dark.  But if we let that darkness prevent us from taking any action, our lives will be frustrating and unfulfilled, and we will be disappointed in ourselves.  We will view ourselves as victims in an unhappy world rather than agents of change.  Rather, we should stand up and wander, even if we aren't quite sure to what purpose.  Maybe we will find new routes, or new allies, or maybe just walking away for a moment and returning will allow us to see our current situation in a new light.  As long as you keep your goal in mind,  as Nelson Mandela has shown us and Frodo will show us, success is possible.  You just have to stand up and try (and try and try and try again).


(Pretty much everything here about Nelson Mandela I learned from Wikipedia.  My sincere apologies if I reported something that is actually untrue.)